| Jacob Hidden |
[Oct. 25th, 2006|01:17 am] |
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i can't believe you're gone.... i can't stop crying. i know we weren't close as we use to be, but i miss you. sorry it had to happen like this...
i will always think of you.
May 14, 1988 - October 24, 2006 |
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| watch out! |
[Sep. 5th, 2006|09:51 am] |
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i'm get to fucking vote today! YAY!! |
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| Envy is the ulcer of the soul. |
[Jul. 14th, 2006|02:58 pm] |
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i know it's wrong to be jealous but sometimes i can't help it.
it doesn't make sense that my friend gets expelled from school and her parents buy her a brand new car. i work my ass off not to disappoint my parents and i'm lucky to get five dollars. she fucks up hardcore and all her parents do is reward her.
also my other friend got a 1480 on the SAT's and she dropped out of high school. she could have gone to any college and do anything she wants, practically for free too. and now she's a fuck up who does coke all the time. all i want to do is go to a four year university and i can't b/c i don't have the grades or the test scores. but i want it so badly, it's just not fair.
i hate being so materialistic. i hate that all i care about is other people and i hate that no matter how i try i can't change the world
the more i think about myself the more confused i get. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 10th, 2006|10:16 pm] |
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OMG!! i can't fucking wait for the 21st!!
you wish you were cool enough to know what i'm talking about! |
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| i need you now more than ever. |
[Jul. 3rd, 2006|11:58 pm] |
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yea so i feel like i'm losing all my friends. nikki has new bestfriends and jon has wendi. i have josh but i still feel so lonely sometimes. i can be with 20 people and feel alone. i wish that things were like they use to be with all of us. but it will never happen. it sucks to watch everyone change around you while you stay the same. i guess they out-grew me. like old jeans.
oh and i still haven't been accepted to college and i have a feeling i will end up right where i don't want to be val state. it's not that it's a bad school i just think i can do better. i wish i would have cared more about school. i wish i had myself figured out.
another thing on my mind is money. it ruins everything it comes close to. people are never satisfied with how much money they have. people always want bigger and better things. so they can act superior to people b/c they have money. i hate money, but yet i love it. |
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| brokeasajoke. |
[Jun. 29th, 2006|02:03 am] |
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i need to figure things out pretty soon. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 23rd, 2006|10:13 pm] |
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you're my everything and i'm scared i'm not anything. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 5th, 2006|12:41 pm] |
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well. it's been awhile. josh and i had a our first serious fight. and i never want to do it again.
it's crazy how he just completes me.
i have no job now, so if you get bored call me or stop by.
i have yet to get into college. val state here i come! |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 21st, 2006|02:30 pm] |
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U.S. NATIONAL DEBT CLOCK
The Outstanding Public Debt as of 21 Apr 2006 at 06:25:31 PM GMT is:
8,376,605,214,546.71
The estimated population of the United States is 298,560,563
so each citizen's share of this debt is $28,056.64.
The National Debt has continued to increase an average of
$2.19 billion per day since September 30, 2005!
Concerned? Then tell Congress and the White House! (http://www.eff.org/congress/) |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 13th, 2006|08:31 pm] |
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i caught my first fish.
the end. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 13th, 2006|08:32 pm] |
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i cried in front of josh. :(
and i went to the beach and the back the of my knees are soooo burnt. i'm in pain.
i now have a 20 year old boyfriend. weird. |
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| Wasting words on lower cases and capitals |
[Mar. 7th, 2006|09:05 pm] |
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| [ | music |
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i went to georgia this weekend with josh and his parents. it was fun, hi did alright. but his parents let us have our own room. it was so nice to be able to just lay around and sleep with josh. it's crazy how happy he makes me.
i graduate in may and it's all i think about. i'm so sick of school.
so i'm skipping thursday. i'm just a bad ass. |
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| i love joshua kaylor coffman! |
[Feb. 20th, 2006|09:16 pm] |
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reasons why i love him...
he makes me smile.
he always accepts my apologizes.
he doesn't always want to have sex.
he buys me donuts.
he texts me just to say "i love you".
he always calls on his lunch break.
he holds me.
he's nice to me no matter how bitchy i am.
he buys me camo.
we can just hold hands.
my parents like him.
he will let me fall asleep on his shoulder.
we go on crazy fishing trips.
what we do is always up to me.
he lets me drive his brand new truck.
he kisses my hand when he drives.
he lets me pick the music in his truck.
he looks me in the eyes.
if he thinks i'm mad he goes to great lengths to make me happy.
he always drives me home.
he walks up to me at parties and whispers in my ear "i love you".
he always makes sure i'm happy.
he refers to me as "his elyse".
we watch cartoons together.
i get to pick the movies.
HE LOVES ME! |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 17th, 2006|06:02 pm] |
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sometime i feel like a bad girlfriend... but i really do try!! he's means alot to me and i wish i could please him 100% of the time.
i'm pretty sure i failed my analytical geometry test.
bush is in town, i'd enjoy actually talking to him...
i need to finish applying to college. i need to make up my mind.
i think i'll take a nap... |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 11th, 2006|06:48 pm] |
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i feel like everything i try to fix fucks up. no one should let me help them, i'll just fuck up. that's what i am... a fuck up.
i hit a hawk yesterday and i pulled over and cried, alot!!
i don't think it died..... i hope not!!!!
i wish i was pretty.
i love josh! |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 3rd, 2006|05:24 pm] |
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i'm going to gainsvllie with josh and his parents...
i've never met them before...
i'm so nervous i might get sick!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 24th, 2006|07:21 pm] |
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josh read my entire livejournal... which is good b/c now he knows what i've been going through. but it's bad b/c i normally only write if i'm feeling an extreme emotion weather it's anger, sadness, happiness... i dunno. i'm glad he know what i've been thinking tho.
he told me he loved me!!! i fell hard for him and he means the world to me. i don't think i've ever felt this way before. but it sucks b.c i'm hardly ever going to see him b/c he has 2 jobs, school, hunting seasons and being a professional redneck! the time we do spend tho is great and i can't wait to see him tomorrow....
i also have court/probation meeting tomorrow. wish me luck! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 21st, 2006|01:59 pm] |
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You are Nay! You joke around and bake poison dyke
cookies and grumble cakes to take over the
world with. You're probably asleep right now.
Do you ever wear your own clothes?
Which Boone Drama Club Member Are You?
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